General Thoughts on Events of Late

At one time I had a sort of duplicate of this site that had almost everything the sameway this site does now. But things got a little out of place at times so I got rid of it. But I did have a link to Rageboy.com and now it seems to have been in the blog deleted. To bad but I will try to put the link back up .....

Mainly now things are coming out.

For a period of close to 3 months I have been almost exclusively been diligently involved in the production of and collation ( as detailed as possible considering the volume at hand ) of material that spans my life and my interests mainly in writing. Some is in art form; some is video or audio. I hope through experimentation with this site and after a trial run with another site that I started even further back in the past (blog rather)... ), I will make it available if I don't have it that way already in some form. But I will make it more obvious. I now have dragonspeak set up so I can dictate when I am in that sort of mood. I have ideas from way back and ideas recent, all of which I plan to synthesize under this one title I finally chose to edify and identify myself with. As I tell (My Story) this is part expedition as well as a cathartic effort to bring myself through a path of the past with a different perspective. The new perspective as it is produced will be psychotherapeutic ( I hope) to the future. Now that may be contradicted eventually but not for the reason anyone might expect. It will most likely occur from the peaceful disolution of time and its effects on my psychologically.

A person can come to believe that a reality of sorts is a certain way intellectually yet viceral knowledge is really really what counts. Try it if you don't believe me. To be certain of religious beliefs I have found many to find themselves, when under pressure, to recognize only then those doubts. It happens all the time.

Many are brought to much better learning through experience. Experience good and bad is a fantastic teacher. Oddly it is usually experience that we do not want that is the best kind. Forcing oneself to make decisions that are not sensible ,... throwing judgement and reason to the wind often bring upon consequences that many would say " I told you that this would end up in a mess". Yes, It is or was a mess. Now I have to think about that. I have to work with that. I have to see what kind of me comes OUT... And what kind does??? what kind of response is you and do you like what you see and do you want to change it??? NOT the experience. Not the situation. Do you want to change the person you saw emerge from the results of the place and time and sensibilities there from????